Dear Mom,
Hi. I know you won't get to see this, but that's not the point. It's Mother's Day and I felt like I needed to write you a letter.
It's been 10 years since I had a Mother's Day with you. That was before everything went really wrong. You still knew who I was...you still knew who Karl was, and you still knew who Dad was. I don't think you ever really forgot what we meant to you... but the day you didn't remember my name was the day I knew things weren't going to be the same.
10 years. I can't believe it's been 10 years since I had a REAL conversation with you. And honestly the last REAL conversation I can remember having with you was about boys. Of all things, why did it have to be about that? I suppose if I had known how little time was left, I would have picked a better topic...had you tell me more about your life growing up. But I was 13. I didn't think that I wouldn't have you for high school, or any of the other important moments in my life.
I hope you're proud of who I've become. I found something I want to do with my life, and I'm doing it. I'm having the time of my life. And it's all because of you. I remember watching you help everyone you could when I was growing up. You had the biggest heart of anyone I've ever met. You helped without question...so now I want to do the same. I'm spending this summer working with first generation college students. It's going to be an AWESOME summer and I'm so excited.
I miss you so much. Sometimes it gets so hard not having you here...but I know you're always with me. You are the best mother in the world, even if you're not here anymore. I love you so very much. Say hi to Aunt Kathy and tell her I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye. They said at her funeral that she reached out and smiled at the end. I choose to believe it's because you were one of the many people waiting for her.
I love you, mommy.
Love,
Michelle
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